Lack Of Sleep Causes A Lack Of Sleep

                 **"I hate it when I don't forward a chain letter --and I die the next day!"**

                            Good afternoon all!----I have another very late start on the day--because I am quickly going into another funk and find I can not sleep at night.  Long story short, my wife and I are fighting again, nothing new really -but this is a big one.  And I again found that instead of settling anything at all she just stops correspondence altogether.  I have also again found that she makes all of the rules all of the time, because we are very into an equal relationship and all.  I have been helping and fighting for things so much---that my classes and other areas are greatly struggling  mostly that I now do not have reliable transportation once again.  I thought I had help in all these areas, but nope----as I lay awake tonight---hoping that she comes by my house for a visit tomorrow ---I am going to use all this new found free time to my advantage and alternate between posting on my blog pages and studying.  I believe I would have already dropped my management training classes--I am so far behind right now, if I did not know that I have to pay for the class if I flunk out or drop it.  And the payment per week--is about the same amount as my paycheck.  I believe this is now my sole motivator to stay in the class.   This blog page alone has nearly 42,000 views now!   So a huge than you to you all!!   As a side thank you ---I really do attempt to keep my lack of a love life woes out of this page.   

     My main focus tonight will be my classes, but I also want to post away on my Exploring page.   I have lots of new pictures and local Exploring to ramble on about.   Please check out my old posts and share the link with everyone you know.  http://exarizonagobensonbobcats.blogspot.com/

      Among trying to catch up on a lot of things--in class --at home and beyond, I have been reading and enjoying many of my blog posts on this very page from the past.  This page has been going strong for about five years now, and although a lot of it expresses pain and negativity---I believe much more of it show cases joy and happiness.  I hope this is true for everyone that stumbles across the page and reads some of the random rambling.  I even manage to slip up and get deep about topics every once in awhile.  And in show casing my pictures, I can re see where I have been and watch our kiddos grow up as I maybe grow up a little bit in my writing, thoughts, rambling, and relationships.   Notice the key word here is maybe.  I have been told multiple times that all of this is a huge waste of time, but writing makes me happy---and Exploring and picture taking makes me even more happy.   So writing it all down is a huge stress reliever for me at any time.   Not to say my stress is near gone, at any rate right now.  I would need a Costco box of enemas for myself and a huge amount of flowers to be stress free at this point.   I have not been on a good  hike or picture taking adventure for to long---living in a small as* apartment is also getting to me.  I don't sit well normally, but lately that seems to be all I do.  I just don't have the desire or motivation to Explore --and that is hard on my soul.   Every time I start to believe that this very page really is a huge waste of time----I start reading the old posts and I soon get lost in the words and quickly find I have a huge smile on my face.  My other deciding factor on how worthy this page is-----all of y'alls views!   Again thank you.  

      I recently learned that I have a lot of paid time off built up at work----and with our tax refund coming soon---am going to start using much of it.  As a server -paid time off is kind of a joke, because I still make $5.20 an hour----my main cash is defiantly in tips each work day.  But this allows me to not be at work, but keep my paychecks the same low amount.  Of course some of this time off is to be spent with my loved ones.  If they start talking to me again.  Much of it will be spent Exploring.  And the pictures will make it on my pages soon after for sure.    Speaking of work--after last week I am beyond lucky to still have a job even.  More so because through all of this pain and crap---most of it self inflicted-work seems to be the only thing keeping me going each day.  When I am stuck up here-away from my family on my daze off work like today---I just want to sleep the day away.  Luckily my apartment complex is beyond loud and this is usually not an option.   Today I do not choose to go into the work ordeal.   Here are some funnies instead.....

      On a high note----My long time Exploring buddy is moving closer to Arizona next month.  I was going to fly up to his old home in Montana and help him move this way----to see him and get in a good road trip---but I am not sure time allows for this fun.  Either rate he will soon be a hop skip and a jump away from here----Bad pictures and or injuries will result from this.

Mmmmm coffee another great love of mine.   

My constant dream   when I do manage to sleep at all.  

Forever and a day

True story. 

Although I am neither of the above at the moment.

    Have a great coffee filled day   Y'all!!

What's Love Got To Do With It!? Or April Don't Read This

                         **"Beyond tired but can not sleep....."**

           **"If it were not for electricity we'd all be watching TV by candlelight."**---George Gobel

     **"I think I am going to stop over thinking every thing I think about. What do you think??"**

                       **"Every one has a plan until they get punched in the face!"** 

If your late for special ed class---is it proper for the teacher to call you tardY? _--Larry the cable guy

        Supposed to break records at 86 outside today. When will this dang winter be over?

      So last week it hit 90 here in Tucson---to soon most of you would say----OK I realize most of my friends and or readers are from areas were it is very cold---so I may be the only one yelling "too soon!"  for such high temperates.  Mainly for two reasons.  We live in the desert, so if it is this warm in the winter----the summer is going bound to be crazy warm.  In fact we as a town broke four separate heat records--records that had stood for years, and not just barley broke the long standing records but broke them by at least 12 degrees.  2nd I do not like anything about snakes, especially rattle snakes, but with the heat, they often think it is summer early and start to enter the trails in droves.  


     My notes number 212: when your main manager announces she is leaving the company DO NOT ask if it is because she knows the business is a " sinking ship" write that down!----   I am not sure who the new main boss is going to be, nor am I sure I wish to know.  I doubt they will ever have my back as much as the current one does though.  We are not great buddies, nor should any boss be so with any worker, but she knows if asked, I can work the company out of many a bind.  And that I have no real life, so can work almost any shift.   The manager also has pulled through for me many a time, just lately quite possibly saving my job.  

If your boss says "get out!" you won the argument


       I love my wife and kiddos with all my heart and I really love that she now usually even is happy to call me her husband, but is this "holiday" over yet?

              So I have written a lot about Valitmimes day in the past.  Mostly about how I/we do not like the fake holiday much at all in our house hold.  With the passing of my wife's dad last year, and his funeral being held on the day, the subject is even more taboo now for us.  I did get to spend the day with my wife and kiddos, but we did not celebrate.  For many reasons I chose this year to delay my love post on here.  I also have a picture filled blog Exploring blog post in the works from our trip to the celebration of life, but have been really holding off on posting this.  Next month is our four year anniversary of mostly being married--- and two things really stand out to me right now------   a few things....
    Whats love got to do with it----we love each other to no end every day  why do we need a day to show this.  Why do I need to keep re proving my eternal love to her?  Why is there a low flying helicopter flying over my apartment complex, and if I go outside, will I get arrested?   Why do I wonder so much?  Why do people as amazing as my wife, have to suffer so much in life?  Why would jock itch even be a real thing?        Here are some other random thoughts about it all.....

V times day is just around the corner and so is your stalker/lover?



     **"If you find yourself sad that you are all alone on Valentines day, just remember....  no one loves you on the other days of the year either."**


     **"Being someones first love may be great, but to be there last is perfect!"**   ;)

I have been looking at pictures for while now. ten years of amazing times with the love of my life and our kids. made even harder because she recently told me that when she passes I can really be with the girl of my dreams. April is my life my dreams my everything. I honestly can't see or want s life with out her. and I often ponder why I keep needing to prove this. forever and a day...     Go after the wife of my dreams  hell I married her.  And will never be the same since.  She has made me for better or worse the person I am today and I would like to say we have become near perfect.  At least much more for the better than for the worse.  She is my everything and will always be the love of my life.  \

As I watched the news a few nights back I could not believe all the idiots I saw supporting Hillary for president.... long story short I really believe she is the anti Christ. Yeah Trump has issues including hair that is alive. But Dam I think him in office would be hours of fun

2/20/2016

The bosses at work told me I was a four star server......

Out of 100 stars   ;(

                       **"This normal you speak of does not sound fun at all."**

                                **"Indecision may or may not be my problem!"**

                              **"Mess with me mess with the whole trailer park!"**

                              **"Life goes on for betterer or worse Coffee helps!"**

                                              **"It's not worth the jail time....."**
               
                 

 
    My  cars back in the Dam shop. Fingers crossed its something cheap Hahaha! On a side note its my Friday at work tonight----- So I had a few new experiences this week.  One dealt with my car.  A car I use every day ---please note.  I can say that our three kiddos ride in the vehicle a lot and it is far from clean, etc.   So a few nights back I returned to my apartment complex about 12 30 at night after work.  Parked my car and ran into my ghetto house before any would be muggers noticed I had a pocket full of tip money.   The next morning -maybe afternoon, when I went out to my car---there was a tow sticker on the drivers side window.  I don't know if any of you have had a tow sticker on your car before---I have and they are made out of super sticky, NASA material and take an hour to fully get off of your window.  Best part--the tow sticker claimed that my car was abandoned.  An hour later--after I had removed approximately 88 percent of the Dam sticker, I went to my property owners office.   The worker was beyond clueless and MUST dye her hair black to fully hide all the blonde.  I kept asking why my every day drive was marked as abandoned and asked how to keep from waking up to it being towed away.  At my expenses ---as the super sticky sticker said.   She had NO answers at all.   Nothing except that it was called in--as not moving and was on the list -to sticker up.    I informed her she should locate someone that knew more--before I woke up to my car towed away, at my expense and I returned to the office, even more annoyed.  Three daze later, and I still have no answers.  I still do not have the full sticker peeled off my Dam car window either.  But since I have the car in the shop---I can say it has not been towed--yet.   

     I also have a new one from me from work----but I am not prepared to discuss it right now on here.  I must say all things considered I am very lucky to still have a job though.   More so than normal--times ten.  I say that because at work---any work place I tend to push the limits and get away with it.   Please also note our wedding anniversary is coming up next month.  Four years of mostly claiming to be married to each other!  So please note--- sappy posts might very well make there way into this very blog page about us.  The amazing comedian Jeff Dunaham is coming to Tucson just before our big day, so we are planning on going to that for sure.    Pictures and such will make it in here soon after of course.   

          As always thank you for checking out this page.  Posting here is amazingly calming for me and enjoyable.  I hope y'all get loads of joy by reading this page.  I have been taking lots of pictures of my local Exploring page also.   Show casing amazing Arizona with pictures and Exploring done by me and my kiddos, when they chose to get off the couch.  ;)   MANY updates coming to both pages.  Please check out my Exploring page now:

                         http://exarizonagobensonbobcats.blogspot.com/

With our tax money ---I will be taking a long over due trip back home to Wyoming.  

I am kind of stalling until winter is more of a memory because I have lived in the desert and warmer climents for so long that cold and I are not buddies any more.  

1/29/2016---Yo Yo!

 

Bellingham,WA Exploring past.

     Greetings from the MC grease pit right down the street from me.  I am stalling before having to do laundry once again.  I have noticed several things while not having Internet at home in the last few months--one being with at least three grease pits on the same stretch of road, none of them are every very busy and like a big -food & coffee filled, air conditioned office.  Where one can also get in some great people watching.  I also am a little annoyed that so far I keep being drawn to the same place because it is easy and I know they have free MC Wi-Fi.  But there are soooo many coffee shops in the area.  And I wish to Explore them all. ;)  For if you have not yet gotten the memo---I enjoy a great cup of coffee or five in the morning. 

   

                         **"Woman are made to be loved not understood."**

Annnnnnd back in the dog house. It's been awhile. But it still hurts as much.-------  With all going on it has been awhile --especially for us since we have fought--but it does not make it any easier.  I am trying to live by the above quote even more--but it seems like I keep having to prove my love and I am not sure why.  It also many days seems like I am just in the bating cages swinging and missing ---there when fully needed, but only a stand by when life gets in the way.  And life gets in the way a lot.  I probably do not want to know the whole truth--but I wish we could both put all our cards on the table and move on from there in the way we both see best.  Hopefully most of this is just in my head.    I find I am fighting going into a deep funk right now---not being welcome at there house.  Where I could just sleep all day and not do anything else and be fine with it.    Enough "deep" for now Y'all. 

 
       My Exploring page has MANY updates in the works, full of pictures and trips across amazing Arizona-------Please check it out It is a great read while downing large amounts of coffee for sure. wink emoticon http://exarizonagobensonbobcats.blogspot.com/ I have been busy taking lots of pictures for this page. And when things settle down more---I will be doing lots of updates. Please share the link with your friends if you enjoy what you see here!!        Depending on how much class work I get done and how early I sneak out of work---a brand new post might appear on this page yet tonight! 

 

 

 

 

Does this count as car pooling?

 

 

 

 

I have tried this at work, and the customers still see me and than ask for stuff!

 

 

 

 

 

Write that down!

 

Much more good sounding stuff -sure to be true if you think about

it long enough--in my next post!

Thanks for being a reader!!

 

 

 

 

Never Trust Someone That Does Not Drink Coffee

               Hello readers!   As this great day un folds I am happy for a lot of things.  Mostly that my beautiful wife is still by our side.  That we are still as in love as in the beginning with a few minor hiccups of course.  That I get to go to work soon.  That we still have freedom of speech---please enjoy that while you still can my friends.  And that I have found lots of coffee!!  As always I am happy for my many readers of this page.  As I have not had time to update any of my pages in the last few months---in fact I have found the need to eliminate one page, because others go to crazy when they read things they do not like. I guess the truth really does hurt in many cases.   As I get time I check the views of all of my pages, and am always amazed at how many I accumulate.   Thank you all for this!!

   My Exploring page has MANY updates in the works, full of pictures and trips across amazing Arizona-------Please check it out    It is a great read while downing large amounts of coffee for sure.    ;)   http://exarizonagobensonbobcats.blogspot.com/        I have been busy taking lots of pictures for this page.  And when things settle down more---I will be doing lots of updates.  Please share the link with your friends if you enjoy what you see here!!  

      Now to explain the first paragraph in a little more detail.  Because of a whole group of messes ---I have spent the last month trying to get a police report describing it all for my wife--and one for me.  All of this leading to my closing my local Benson page--Because apparently meth heads are beyond crazy.  Benson has a very small police department and actually catching up with live workers seems to be nearly impossible.  Even with multiple requests.  I guess I should have filled my requests for the paper work when we first talked to the officers.  After yet another day of not getting the paper work I wished for yesterday---I went off on a mini anger spurt about visiting a "Mayberry police department from hell!"  When I returned later in the day I was annoyed to find the records clerk had already went home.  But not before complaining about my attitude.  The original officer in all of this----one my wife is in the middle of taking to court--and one that is greatly on a power trip---I don't recall any Mayberry police being on power trips.  He probably does not drink his morning coffee...   The officer did hand me my paper work  finally---but managed to work in two lectures before doing so.  One about my attitude towards HIS records clerk and one about running my mouth and not being able to back things up.  Where most of this all started in the first place and because he had sense read much of my local Benson page.   I instantly started wishing I had brought some one with me and our tape recorder, as I had done every other trip to the station.  I grabbed the papers, stepped back a few feet, and kept repeating about the greatness of my freedom of speech.  Something that also ironically plays deeply in all of this.  I think I will mail him and the Mayberry records clerk a big shipment of coffee beans!!  

      Now about my beautiful wife.   She recently was released from the hospital and on Thursday once again ended up in the hospital.  She was bad this time around, not that any hospital trip is good.  Especially if it involves the Benson hospital.  I am ready to prepare a whole post about one recent trip there at the Mayberry hospital.  Anyways this trip was extra scary and as soon as they had her stabilized in Benson they were prepared to air vac her once again to Tucson and a real hospital.  I got the news as I was ready to clock into work, and received a text from her mother, who found her unconscious---simply saying "your wife is dying."   So I was beyond unsettled by the time I reached the hospital.  Making things worse---- at one point my wife and I had the room to ourselves.  I was gripping her hand and she was fading in and out of being awake and or alert.  She looked up at me---at something  and kept saying she loved me.    For 20 minutes straight.   She NEVER does this.   And I became even more worried   although I could not help but think she thought she was talking to someone else, or saw a bag of Mc burgers in the room.  That feeling at that moment made all of the bad go away.  She is out of the hospital now, in fact if I ever get out of work I am going to visit her.  Later we talked about all of this--always a bad idea.  And she said she does not recall anything from that night.   Kind of ruins the beauty of it all, but I know that through it all she loves the crap out of me.   She just needs to be nearly dead to share. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

                            **This one makes me laugh every time I see it. 

 

 

Today's pictures of the day come from the monastery in St David Arizona.

Lots of pictures coming from this short trip about a week ago.  I took with our youngest.  Whom might have actually takin' more pictures than I did on this trip.  With all the hospital visits and such I have been doing plenty of praying and thankfully so have many of my readers. 

 

 

 

 

 

Welcome Back---To Me!

 

 

      I have been away from all of my pages for awhile.  And as is usually the case, the more quiet I am the better for everyone involved.  ;)   We recently had many small issues turned episodes in the grand city of Benson--involving our truck that was for sale, idiots, police, and court--because I soon had my own lynch mob on my personal Benson page--I have done everything short of closing the page---apparently you can not just close a page on Facebook.  And I deff. do not want someone else taking over that page.  You have to delete everyone from the group, and than delete yourself, and Facebook will notice it is an empty page, and make it go away.  Easier said than done, because you have to personally delete everyone from the page--one at a time.  My page has 1800 members.  For a quicker route -one can go down in a post on the page filled with curse words and such, and the whole page will soon be deleted.  I am currently letting the situation fix itself by making it to were no one can post on the page--except under current conversations.  And the only current on up--says that the page is closed!  And by slowly deleting the members in no order.  This of course is making everyone angry--and instead of just leaving the page, they are calling me every name in the book.   One good comment has shown on the page and I must share it here......

"Closed meaning not anyone can join. He started the group so why does anyone Care if he is the admin? I don't comment on here often, and the only reason I stay on is to see how upset one single man can make everyone. If everyone is so upset with the man why not leave the group on your own ???? I don't know this Adam character but I do know he brings amusement by getting everyone all fired up, essentially over nothing
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  Finally had my eval. at work- only six months late. Came out pretty darn good, although it is about time for my next eval! Hard to believe I have been there almost two years now. My main negative--Apparently I am a "hot head." *Shocker!! I replied with ---well stop pissing me off...  ----I really like this job, so I really do not want to say to much more here.  I found out long ago I have no idea who is really reading this page.  And although I do enjoy ticking people off most of the time, my bosses might not need any more encouragement to call me a hot head.   I got no real raise out of all of this fun.  My checks are kind of a joke anyway, since my real money comes from tips each day.   They are giving me a lump check at equivalent to a 2 % raise for the last six months -since the evaluation was due.   So it should be a big lump.  

 

They said I was a four star Server!

Out of 100 stars....

     One last quick thought from work ----We recently got another new manager on our side---to many hot heads must keep them from staying over us?  Anyways I believe the first day new boss worked with us, she was told that I would come up with a nick name for her.  I have been slacking on coming up with one---and was also un aware that the cook line had come up with one for her---Beetle Juice, because she wears striped tops ALL the time.  Anyways, please note I did not come up with this one -in any way---but I still got thrown under the bus.  She confronted me about two weeks ago, positive I came up with the name, and asking why.   I promised her, that I would have at least told her the nick name I would have came up with----and she just kept standing there looking sad-and sure that I had come up with the name.  So I asked her---"If we yell Bettle Juice three times---will you appear when we need help on the floor?"    Funny right?   She just kind of disappeared at that point. 
   

                
  Please don't forget to check out my local Exploring page full of pictures and Exploring across Arizona.  I have been greatly slacking on this page also, but there are lots of past posts to check out.  And MANY new pictures and posts in the works!  Show your friends!!   http://exarizonagobensonbobcats.blogspot.com/

                       Wilcox, Arizona Exploring
  

**My kids can be pretty great when they choose to be. Just like my beautiful wife!**-----Just sayin'
I have a rare Saturday off work coming up, were for once Friday will also be my Friday!  And I don't know what to do with myself.  I don't want to go on a hike, because everyone is off on the week ends.  Hopefully after I sit on the couch all morning in my underwear eating Coco Puffs and watching cartoons----my wife and I have an amazing date night.  

 

Sheridan, Wyoming Exploring.

Every one should have a cup o white mocha Steve~!

 

 

                    **"I have seen awful things----empty coffee cup things."**