Sunday, August 28, 2016

8/28/2016 Still Heartbroke

            I am sitting here attempting to watch the Simpson's.     At the moment I am to cheap to pay for cable and am using an old school attenee.  It is usually more than enough to get about 20 channels--although several of these are all in Spanish.  Tonight it is not working at all and I am typing this as I watch the sun go down -a better show at the moment.  Drinking coffee attempting to wake up and to shut off my brain.   To many questions and such roam around in my head right now.  They mainly stay buried during the day, because I am at work or running errands- but I don't have work today and they are again taking over.  This -joy is usually saved for bed time, when my mind fully wakes up and sleep becomes a distant memory just like my happiness.  At the moment I am pondering how to ask if someone is cheating --without really asking.  Not being even close to 100% sure-  and mainly relying on the little true information I have, and a lot of probably untrue information my brain has come up with, I am in now way prepared to ask this question in any way.  Although I already seem to be deep in the dog house.   Last night I was a dip---and returned to work at midnight, because they only had one server on the floor   on a Saturday night.  Yes--I have no life right now!  Because I did go into work---against every one's thoughts on my Facebook post about it.   Wooo!   It actually saved me cash  because I was getting ready to sneak to the other casino for an hour or six.  It did not save me tummy though, because since I was around food, and helping--I convinced the boss I needed free food, at three in the AM.  At any rate I basically have not heard anything from my beautiful wife in about four weeks, and I do believe my heartbreak is slowly turing into constant heartburn from stress.   Through it all I hope she is/becomes happy.
    Is it sad that I top our food sales by a lot each month even over the full time workers? Here's the best part. I don't ever actually work at high sales. Just think if I was motivated.... :) I know your reading this, boss---I was bugging the bosses about this all day at work the other day and this was my final jab online, because our main boss is a friend on my Facebook page.  Although I believe she is smart enough, like most of you, not to read this page.  Almost every month  my food sales are the highest, even over the actual full time workers.  I feel there is no real motivation from management to increase or push sales, so never actually try to have high sales---it just happens.  They know I can sell the crap out of any item I or they choose though.   And this maddens them.  Good times.                                                                                                                                                 
                                                                                                                      My local Exploring page is ever getting fuller and waiting for your views!   Please check it out.  ...                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                        
                                                                                           **"I would like to apologize to anyone I have NOT offended.  Please be patient.  I will get to you shortly."**

      I think that I am thinking way to much about not thinking about it all. My minds about to explode. And sleep is just a memory like us happy. I love you to Dam much and we have to much history for it to be so difficult. Call me b*tch----In my defence --our song used to be 50 Cents-  B*tch git in my car.  
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                  **"Be careful who you push away, some of us don't come back."**
                                                                                                                                                                      **"I learn from mistakes others make while following my advice."**---
        Two notes on this real quick.  Or not if you are a slow reader.    I tend to make mistakes a lot, but seldom the same one twice.  But Dam there sure are a lot of mistakes out there to do.  And people seem to come to me a lot for advice--I listen -kinda and than tell them what I really think---almost never what they want to hear.  They get mad and a few weeks later come to me with a new issue.  Interesting. 
                                                                                                                                                                                                                         Here's your sign!?                    

Tuesday, August 23, 2016

Phoenix Get Away Part II

     As I noted in the first part of this Exploring trip ---this is a very hard trip for me to post about.  I realize the pictures and the Exploring have not changed, but this was supposed to be a trip about just my beautiful wife and I.   And as the weeks go on since, with no replys from my wife, this trip is all the more hard to tell about.  I now have little clue how much she actually enjoyed this trip, but I had a great time.  And like all the times I look around work, and realize I am the only one laughing and or having a good time---is that not all that really matters?  I had fun.  For better or for worse here is part two.   For much more Exploring -my personal pictures, random rambling, and lots of coffee love please check out my first-and longest running blog page  at                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                      
                                                                                                                       I can only hope there are many more pictures like this to keep filling my life                            
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                       Because this is just not that attractive and proably won't sell that many books in the future.                                                                                          
                          Maybe one of the worse pictures of my wife -ever.  I am usually the one that shows up deformed in 90% of pictures of me.  We had stopped downtown for me to get a picture, and on the way back up to the car I got this shot of her.   I guess I did not realize I was that bad a driver.   Although we were in a rental car, so my driving skills were deffinatly not as fine tuned as when in our own vehicles.  I guess if she looked like this much, I can see clearer why I am now single.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                             At one point we stopped at one of the most ghetto Wal Marts I have ever seen.  And we have seen and worked at a lot of the retail giant stores through the years.   Above is storage lockers in the front of the store for customer belongings.  Something I have never seen before.   And had to snap a picture of.   Inside the electric carts each had extra tall poles sticking off the top---I guess so workers could locate the carts easier in the parking lots.  Or when they were being drove/stole zipping down the local side walks                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                             
                                                                                                                    A little down town Exploring   Even the bus stops are works of art.                                                                                                                                                                                                                  
                                                                                                                                                                     I am not lion   I really enjoyed this trip  
                                                                                                                                                                     I am not sure what the above restaurant sells--and am not sure I want to know.   But they sell coffee  just to the left!   So it can't be an all bad place.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            
                                                                                                                                                                                 I really wanted a picture of myself mirrored in this building    but whatever the building housed-- a lot of security roamed outside here.  And it was far to hot outside to run any.                                                                                                                                                                                             
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     Near the amazing zoo is a very large park with several large ponds and streams running through the whole area.  As always any time I spot water in Arizona, I run twords it, jump in it, and or get pictures.  Maybe not in that order.     We have visited the zoo  years ago as a family and it is amazing.   But huge.  And after paying admintance it's very hard not to roam around all day in the intense heat   so you can see it all.  Tucson also has an amazing zoo--surrounded by a water filled park.  A much more managable zoo---Several posts can be found about the Tucson zoo   on this very page!                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         
                                                                                                                                                                                  I have written about spray paint a lot.  And feel that many times the art is amazing more so when you realize they are using spray paint.  And some times it is just pure crap--like when a mighty cactus or the local Mission church gets tagged.   I just thought the above was a neat contrast picture.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    
                                                                                                                                                                               As I attempted to get this reflection picture in one of the many ponds a large fish jumped full out of the water proably snacking on protein filled bugs.   I than jumped back  before not aware that the ponds were stocked with fish.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                 As the sun began to set  I found many rocks and such to climb on.  Fair warning I ran around trails and the open desert for awhile getting quite a few pictures.  
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          So many trails   So little time!
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                  before and after
                                                                                                                                                                               Much of the large rock formations were full of residents waiting for the sun to set.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                             
This made me really want to Explore Camel Back Mountain the following day  But the morning started out very warm, and we kind of ran out of time on this trip.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                View from the top                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                               
Sky view                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    


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                                                                                                                                                                             Up close.  A tribute to Arizona's first governer  And a neat picture.  Also quit a view from this mountain top.   As I turned around the sun was just beggining to set.  
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     Each and every Arizona sunset & rise is amazing and has slightly different colors.                                                                                                                                                                                                            
                                                                                                                                                                                     Time to jog back to the rental car as I got some parting shots. 

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              Next a quick picture filled Exploring trip closer to home.  
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                        As always
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                               **HAPPY TRAILS!!**